Attitude of Gratitude
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- Published on Friday, 05 September 2014 11:55
- Last Updated on 05 September 2014
- Kenia Nuñez
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I have been a widow for a little over a year now. In the midst of silence and profound pain, I have come to terms that in his short 39 years, my husband fulfilled his purpose here on Earth. I also recognize that I am still living and breathing and therefore, I still need to fulfill mine.
As I navigate this untraveled road, I honor who I am every day of my life, as I have never been a single mother before, nor have I ever been a widow. Death has awakened many parts of me that were sleeping, and for that I am grateful. By way of my husbands death, he gave me life. I have an appreciation for the things I was oblivious to, but most importantly it has taught me compassion for myself. The grace to forgive myself for things I cannot change, and the wisdom to honor and respect who I am today is where I find my greatest inner peace.
Having an attitude of gratitude through grief, is a delicate and complicated dance; actually it’s more like a roller coaster ride. Through that unpredictable ride of life, we must remember that even with the lowest of lows, that the highest of high’s are yet to be experienced in our lifetime.
To the world, I appeared to have it all: a loving husband, three beautiful children, a gorgeous house, a secure and fulfilling job and an unapologetic zest for life. But there was a hidden reality beneath that happy veneer. After years of running on empty, I finally crashed and spiraled into a depression that would rattle my grasp on life and nearly destroy my marriage. The worst, however, was yet to come: In 2011 cancer struck, afflicting my very strong and athletic husband, John. Only then, during this excruciating twist, did I realize life’s true purpose–to embrace each moment with awareness, appreciation and, whenever possible, complete joy.